It was one of those moments when you knew, it was time for change, to step out of my comfort zone. Over the past 14 years I had built myself a career in finance and investments and had a ‘good job’ in management. Why was I feeling restless and wanting more? Yes I was good at my job and I did like what I do, but there was still so much that was out of my hand, that had nothing to do with how great I was at my job. I spoke to my friend, who was also a respected insurance agent, to get some perspective. We spoke at length discussing my options, goals, skill sets. I was encouraged and ready to grow.
My journey at my new company began in mid-2015. I was excited beyond words in spite of concerns of a few relatives and friends. Pre-contract was extended, still I was resolute to learn and be the best me. I eventually made contract in November 2015 and got my first pay check or FYC as this was now my new language. 2016 rolled around and I was full of confidence, the 1st quarter went by slowly, could things get worse?…..Yes, I was in a 4 vehicle collision that totaled my car. Then came the 2nd quarter which found me ‘unproductive’ not something good in any industry but it was one of the dirty words in the insurance business. My confidence began to wane so did my faith in myself. My exuberance was replaced with sleepless nights, secret crying sessions, and bills piling up. I questioned myself, I felt God was not seeing me, being asked to leave was definitely not in the cards. I needed to act, I settled my 1st million in July and followed up in August and September and ended the year in like fashion. MDRT and Century club qualifier ….yes that was me.
You will need supporters to motivate and remind you when you forget and the passion to fuel you on. This is my path, the race is not for the swift but for those who persevere to the end.
So we are halfway through the year…….Already ?!!…. I can hardly believe it. Time for me to review all the plans and goals that where set for 2016. I have achieved some ……yet others find me terribly off track. Not to mention all the unforseen roadblocks, despair, tears, sweat, doubt, and restless nights thrown in the mix. Did i mention that new career I am working at that’s not quite working with my timeline?, hmmm….don’t ask……..sounds like high drama right?
I have discovered much to my dismay that I am not a patient person, and that much like the children of Israel on their way from Egypt ,….how quickly I too forget Gods goodness and blessings when I feel things are going wrong for too long. Yes, I have those days when I think he is my genie and i should get my wishes (prayers) answered straight away. I am learning though to be thankful for my small miracles, and to keep faithful and not lose my joy….yup lots of learning going on around here, slowly but surely.
I am making a conscious decision to get up and go, stay the course and not be afraid to maybe make some minor adjustments along the way.
So how is your year going so far ? I hope great, if not and its sort of like mine, don’t worry better days are ahead, in the meantime enjoy the journey !.
Yesterday,my friend buried her husband of 35 years. She laid to rest her friend, confidante, lover and the father to her children…40 years of having him by her side but now she must carry on without him. How ?
I watched helplessly with tears flowing down my cheeks as my friend who always exudes grace and elegance could not contain her emotions or find the strenght to stand as his casket was lowered in the grave.
I have no soothing words to say, nothing came to mind that could bring comfort. My heart broke because hers was broken.
I thought about how our heavenly father heart must also break for us when we too suffer because of sin. Still it also reminds that a day will come when death will no longer steal our loved ones and gladness shall forever be in our hearts. What a day that will be, O what a day that will be.
Resolutions, goals, big dreams……….splat ! thats the sound of my bubble bursing. The first month in the new year was coming to a fast close and I wasn’t feeling as close to my goals as I had when it just started. That old bastard fear and doubt started to make his way to the controls in my subconcious.
I had to remind myself that I worked best when i wasn’t trying to impress anyone and when i didn’t care what other people thought, i did my best when i just did what i was suppose to do, what I felt was right and what i felt/knew the Lord was leading me to do.
The truth is we don’t always have smooth sailing our lives, this i know yet I didn’t feel any better.. if our lives were graphs it would move up and down like the stock charts, but just as the Bear market always returns to Bull so will sense, normalcy and smooth sailing enter our world. Just as night follows day so too will the unpleasant season be followed by many days of great JOY !. Yes, I am soo looking forward to my season of spring…sheesh.
I am really not good at the ‘patience is a virtue bit’ and i believe thats one of the things I am to learn from this whole ‘test’ which i am failing at ….quite miserably too I might add. Still I commend myself because ‘knowing’ what your weakness is ….IS the first step. So as I forge valiantly into February determined to persevere, be encouraged, stay motivated, remain faithful AND learn (this is quite important) I do so comfortable and confident in the fact that I am no longer standing on the sidelines watching, wishing, wondering as others played their game but pleased as punch that I got up off the bench and started to play MY game,…and as my grandmother use to tell me “you will never know if you will win, lose or draw if you don’t play”.
So 2016 Ready, Set………..Game On !.
No man is an island and no man stands alone. One thing is for sure, to get to the top you are going to need support.
In almost every success story that I have ever read they always, always had someone who opened a door, provided financial support or as Miss Oprah says somebody to show them the way.
When Josephs brother sold him into slavery he must have felt devastated, confused and frightened. Just imagine being betrayed by those closest to you, being torn from family and what is familiar and taken to a strange new land. However, even under circumstances such as this we are never truly alone. Joseph experienced many ups and downs in Egypt from being in charge of Potiphar’s affairs, being thrown in prison before being brought to Pharaohs attention and eventually being second in command over all of Egypt. This story has many points but the one I am looking at today is that even in this strange new land Joseph the Lord provided supporters in the form of Potiphar, the prison warden and Pharaoh.
Its amazing how sometimes you come in contact with individuals who appear to be selfish with their support or maybe they reserve their support for certain categories of persons.We all can provide support to someone on their journey to the top, you never know what your role will be or at what stage of their journey you will impact someone. For each of us the journey is different but regardless of how you start out success can be yours.
I leave you with this African proverb: If you want to go fast go, go alone. If you want to go far, go together…
Until next time walk good.
“These things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient !. They will not be overdue a single day”. Habakkuk 2:3
Oh I can not count how many times I have been anxious and worried when a deadline approaches or something that is really important to me seems to loom out of my control and I rack my brain for a solution, trying to fix things on my own.
The bible tells us not to worry because Gods plan for us will unfold in just the right time and in the right way, he is after all an on time God. Our all knowing all seeing savior that desires all that is good for his wayward children. I love this message because it reminds me that that my God has a plan for me and it WILL unfold in his time. It reminds me not to bury myself in worry even when things/life seems to be going awry. It reminds me to have FAITH because God is in control.
There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever. …Mahatma Gandhi