A little over 5 years ago, I started to feel restless in my job. I was good at what I did and for a long time I had enjoyed doing it,………until I didn’t. My heart was no longer contented and I was confused. I had been in this profession for almost two decades it was all I knew, was I even good at anything else?, what other skills did I have?, I was approaching 40, was it wise to even change careers now? I had a family to think about, this was madness. A myriad of questions swirled around in my head. I shared how I was feeling with one of my girlfriend who was also thinking of making a change and she suggested we do the following:
- Make a list of our transferrable skill sets
- Make a list of what we enjoyed doing
- Make a list of what we wanted to accomplish/feel/achieve in this next chapter and…
- Most importantly to pray about it
Among the things I listed were, I wanted to make lotsof money, for me this meant I wouldn’t have to worry about sending my kids to college, I could have my mom come visit the kids without her ponying up the airfare and my husband and I could retire comfortably and not be a worry to our children. I wanted more quality time with my family, I wanted to take a vacation when I chose to, (I was tired of being told when I could get some days of), I really wanted to share my knowledge and empower others and if possible prevent them from making some financial mistakes I made when I was younger.
I decided to take a leap of faith and leave the comfort of my job where I knew exactly how much I would be paid each month. My vocation which gave me so much security, which enabled me to take holidays every year, the industry where I had worked so hard to get to where I was at that point. After much prayer, and consultation, In 2015, I walked away from the job which had defined me for so long.
It’s funny how you can be standing right in the middle of your blessing and not realize it, because you expected it to come in a certain order and with a specific timeline. My life has never worked this way so I am unsure why I expected it to be neat and orderly this time.
In my new profession, over the past 5 years I have gained an amazing wealth of knowledge, not only from my organization which spares no expense when it comes to training, but also from my clients who span a wide range of occupation and interest. I have been able to reach so many individuals and impart all the knowledge and experience I have gained, my heart squeals with joy each time a client realizes a goal. I have played hooky with my three favorite guys and driven out of town in the middle of the week and for the first time in years take a Christmas vacation back to back ….absolute joy!!.
Yet a couple of weeks ago I was throwing myself a tiny pity party mainly because It has been five years and I am not rich yet, And I am still on a budget ….yes this sucks….majorly!.
For days I couldn’t get pass this, then I finally heard God whisper to me ‘In my time and not yours my child’. I won’t lie I am not totally over not accomplishing this part of my goal as yet, however I am choosing to be grateful for answered prayers , for unexpected opportunities and blessings I didn’t pray for but received. I read an article recently from a Christian author I follow which says ‘I have to be careful not to be so focused on the answer that I miss out on what he desires to teach me while I am waiting’
But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance.
Romans 8:25
Be still in the presence of the Lord, wait patiently for him to act
Psalm 37:7
I hope you choose joy, while we wait.